if only...

thanks to xy... i managed to catch all the episodes of 小娘惹.

i was at a loss when i finished the drama. it was like "OMG! i have nothing to look forward to anymore." i actually had high regards for the last episode, but i guess the ending made me feel a little bit... hmm... unsatisfied. there are just so many questions like why? how come? where?

haiyo... i think the main morals of the show is about loyalty, treating unfairness with fairness, karma, amking your own destiny, never giving up and so on.

just ranting: i feel that sometimes, life can be so cruel that you just cannot find hope after incidents that happen to you.

take yu zhu for example. she was born in a family of people who thrive on making other people's lives miserable. yet, she was such a nice lady who had such fine manners and who helped those who needed her. but in the end, the worst things that could ever happen to a lady happened to her. could she have helped herself in that instance? could she have changed her destiny?

i guess this is life. we just have to go through it with lots of optimism. just believe. believe that there will always be sun after the rain. believe that you are always better off than some.

difficult but if we're able to stay optimistic even for some instances, we'll feel better.

oh... and another part that baffles me is the part when yueniang allows chenxi to carry on his life without her. something about letting him go is loving him than selfishly keeping him by her side. maybe i'm just too young or selfish to understand this point but for now, i feel that if i really love someone and that someone loves me, i will go against all odds just to be with him. i guess i can never be happy with another person. and wouldn't it be selfish to allow another person whom you do not love as much stay by your side?

well, of course it's just what i feel and think so... if you happen to disagree with me, that's normal. haha.



so the new year's here. what are your resolutions? hehe.