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hEY hEY... bEEN rEALLY lONG sINCE i tYPED aN eNTRY... hEHE... hMM... dID nOTHING mUCH mAN... oNLY lIKE uSE cOM... o... THESE fEW dAYS i vERY gOOD wOR... sUDDENLY kEEP rEADING bOOKS... hAHHAA... yUP... dEN nOTHING lOR... cOS nEXT wEEK wILL kEEP gOING oUT dENN hAVE tO sTAY hOME tHIS wEEK... wAT a tHEORY aH?! hAHAHA... bUT tHIS iS sUPPOSED tO be iT... jUST fOLLOW lOR... hAHAHA..

mANY tHINGS hAPPENED dURING tHESE 2 mONTHS... i hAVE eNCOUNTERED dEATH aFTER dEATH... wAT'S gOING oN?!? i nOE tHAT iT'S tHE pACKAGE... bUT... hAI... aFTER mY lAO mA... dEN iT wSA mY fREN'S aH gONG... i nOE hOW sHE fELT loR... dEN nOW... iTS mY uNCLE... hE wAS 30 + oNLY lOR... cOMMITED sUICIDE...

gUESS iT'S dUE tO dEPRESSION... iS lIFE tHAT vULNERABLE? tHE aNSWER sHOULD bE yES... lIFE iS vULNERABLE... bUT wAT cAN wE dO? lIVE lIFE tO tHE fULLEST... dO wAT wE mUST aND dREAM! fULFIL wATEVER wE nEED aND wANT tO... aNOTHER 1 oF mY uNCLE is sTILL iN hOSPITAL... hE hAD a sEVERE iNJURY oN tHE hEAD aND nOW hE'S sTILL lYING iNN tHERE... i dIN gO sEE hIM bUT mY mUM aND dAD dID... tHEY tOLD mE hE wAS bLEEDING... wHERE? u nOE cHINESE sAY 7 kONG lIU xUE... yAH.. tHE eARS... eYES... nOSE... aND sO oN.... ALL bLEEDING... cAN u iMAGINE hOW tERRIBLE tHAT iS? i duN eVEN dARE gO iMAGINE aBOUT iT... hE'S a gOOD pERSON... tHE uNCLE wHO cOMMITED sUICIDE wAS a gOOD maN tOO... wAT eVER hAPPENED tO sHAN yOU sHAN bAO?

tHESE fEW qUESTIONS hAVE bEEN gOING tHROUGH mY mIND... lIKE sINCE sOME PpLE aRE gOOD... y dO tHEY sTILL hAVE tO gO tHROUGH sO mUCH pAIN? iS lIFE REALLY UNFAIR? wAT wILL hAPPEN wHEN wE dIE? pPLE aLWAYS TOK aBOUT HELL... u uSUALLY hEAR pPLE sAYING tHAT tHEY hAVE gONE tO hELL bUT tURNED bACK... hAVE u eVER hEARD pPLE sAYING tHAT tHEY wENT tO hEAVEN aND sEE b4...? mAYB yES bUT i hAVEN'T eNCOUNTERED aNY1... iS dEATH tERRIFYING oR THE dAYS wE aRE lIVING sCARY? mY dAD uSED tO sAY... dUN bE afRAID oF deAD pEOPLE... bE mORE aFRAID oF lIVING pPLE... aND i tHINK iTS tRUE... wAT cAN a dEAD pERSON dO? oNLY a lIVING pERSON cAN bACKSTAB... CAN uSE a kNIFE tO kILL... aND mAKE u fEEL bAD aBOUT uRSELF... cAUSE dEPRESSION... bUT tHE dEAD pERSON iS jUST a dEAD bODY... lYING tHERE mOTIONLESS...

mY mUM wENT TO mY uNCLE'S fUNERAL yESTERDAY... sHE tOLD mE tODAY tHAT wHEN hIS mOTHER tOKED tO hIM... THERE wERE tEARS fLOWING fROM hIS eYES... cAN u iMAGINE tHAT? a dEAD pERSON... tEARS rOLLING fROM hIS eYES... rEGRETS... i THINK hE lEFT tHIS wORLD wITH sO maNY rEGRETS... lEFT hIS wIFE... lEFT hIS 3 kIDS... oN tHIS wORLD tO fEND fOR tHEMSELVES... sADNESS rEALLY fILLS a pERSON'S hEART iF u wENT tO sEE tHE SITUATION fOR uRSELF... i hAVEN'T sEEN iT bUT i gUESS i'LL cRY bAH... THINKING aBOUT iT aLREADY mAKES mE wANT tO dROP tEARS...

i haVE aLWAYS wANTED tO bELIEVE tHAT tHIS wORLD iS nOT aN uNFAIR pLACE... hAPPINESS... kINDNESS sTILL FILLS tHE pLACE... bUT tHAT'S bCOS i hAVEN'T sEEN tHE bOTH sIDES yET... tHERE ARE tHINGS tHAT ARE rEALLY uNFAIR... sO uNfAIR tHAT u CANNOT tAKE iT... bUT wE sHOULD TAKE iT sMOOTHLY... bE pREPARED... dUN THINK TOO mUCH... bE a lITTLE bIT mORE hAPPY gO lUCKY... i gUESS oNLY lIKE tHAT u'LL fEEL hAPPIER... I REALLY wISH aND hOPE fOR gOOD hEALTH aND tHE bEST oF lUCK fOR tHE fAMILY... aLL tHE beST aNND dUN tAKE iT tOO hARD... i tHINK tHEY wON'T rEAD tHIS bUT i jUST wANT TO wISH tHEM... a kIND oF xIN yI...